Tuesday, February 14, 2006
Today wasn't a good day, most likely due to my lost of sleep. My head was full of facts I memorised from the lecture notes. My brain just can't stop working! Laid on the bed from 1am to 7.05am, eyes wide opened.
UCCD test wasn't a satisfying one for me. I've tried to recall the facts but it seemed as if I suffered from mental block, and most of what I have written were based on my understanding, instead of the flowery prose I have memorised for the past 2 weeks.
At least BPT wasn't so bad after all, and it was a breeze for me. But of course I wouldn't know the outcome. Life is ironical at times. I may think I will fair badly in UCCD, but the outcome might be surprisingly good. While BPT may turn out to be a disaster instead. And yeah! My mobile rang in the course of my test, playing loudly "Truly Madly Deeply." I was cursing the one who called me, and thought I would be fined 50 bucks without doubt. But I was fortunate that susan chiam looked towards my direction and smiled at me instead.
God will decide my fate, whether I can make it to the university or not. Somehow I feel a bad omen is impending in my workplace - that my boss is going to give wx and I a "C" for our ITP report, or mark us down for our "slack" attitude towards work. I can't hope for more also since I'm the "act busy" type. Perhaps I should really consider working hard for the glory of God, just like how I studied hard for God's glory.
Today's my last day attending a full-day school. Mixed feelings - sad because I really enjoyed the "class" atmosphere, giggling with my nonsensical friends like sh, sc, shaf, my and naz. Oops, and what about my "necking" and "jawing" that I've terrorised on sc and hz? They'll all be gone, but will reside in my memory for as long as I am still a "thinking" thing. I won't also be able to hear the word "Rapist" from patricia moreira who taught me Business Law as well. Still can't forget how she'll always tease me till my face was as red as a baboon's butt!
Happy? Partly, because there won't be any more brain-draining exams and sucky project work, at least for the time being. And it's vacation planning time!
Even more sad - I'm serving the nation soon, deeply sceptical of my survival. Under the command of an authority figure seems like a nightmare to a "demanding" and autocratic me. The thought of my gal friends who will step into the society all the more put me under pressure. They will be a step ahead of me. Will they be promoted to managerial position once I complete my national service, and turn out to be working under manager sh, sc, shaf, naz, and any other schoolmates of mine that I can think of? What if I am given the opportunity to further my education, such that I'll graduate at age 27? I will be so old by then! Good and bad consequences. These are just the front list of my 1001 thoughts.
As usual, lovey mum always said to me "mai xiung kah zhuay lah" - which means "do not think too much" in hokkien.
Treasure NOW! Oh men behold! I'm looking forward to night safari next monday, sentosa sun-tanning on next tueday, chan brothers' fair on 26 feb, G.E.T. member outing on 27 feb, chalet from 27 - 29 feb, canoe trip with wx. And thanks wx for the downtown east chalet at merely 40 bucks!
Today's valentine's day, so far not a single one. Perhaps really a future bachelor? Last year I got 2 on mount faber some more with sh and my who practised anti-valentine or what we call it "AV," but it was a complete mistake since the onlookers might be misunderstood! So shan't go anywhere and stayed home instead. Once I fall asleep, it'll soon be another day:)
|Melvin Ng| 9:18 pm|
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